Miss her

Do u ever have those days that just blow up from the second you wake up. I rolled over this morning and grabbed my phone to see what time it was and before I even saw the time I saw the date... September 20th its grandmas birthday ... Well would have been if she was still here.... It's crazy how life works you spend ur whole childhood wishing you were an adult then ur whole adulthood wishing for things to be like they were when you were a child . I had 6 grandparents growing up ,uncles , aunts , cousins ... It seemed like there was an abundance of people around me that would always be around as of this summer I don't have any grandparents , most of my aunts and uncles have disappeared for one reason or another and I catch myself longing for a family I once had .... Damn getting old sucks and I'm only 26 .... People say well you've got those boys and your husband and a home and a job an a lot to be thankful for and I agree I do but I didn't know you had to trade in one for the other I thought family was a package deal I don't know it all seems sad and pointless to me ... Oh ya so I got out of bed after contemplating all of this and decided to check my bank account and remembered the nice present Irene left me as she battered our island last month .... An empty bank account .... Like I said it's just one of those days and now I've got to drive 5 hours for a 3 hour class ... Things you do to try and make it in this world ..... Oh what I wouldn't do to be at my grandmas house today in Newport getting ready for the 4th of July parade or hunting for Easter eggs at the condo ... Damn this sucks ...time to go to many tourists getting on the beach .... Going to get a bday cake for grandma ... She loved cake

Love my boys

It's so sweet to see the love that my boys have for their daddy. Some days it may seem that he is just one of their playmates but on a morning like this one they really showed how much the love and respect him. I was thinking today that it's pretty crazy how our little dudes are almost 2 and 5 ... And then I got to thinking that these little boys have lived in the same house their whole life ... Talk about stability ... That's something that I am incredibly proud of ...anywho this is me signing out for the night

A day with the fishes ...

I took Noah and Ryden to the aquarium last Sunday while mike and Cory went surfing ... We had a lot of fun . It's a small aquarium so we were only there for about an hour. Noah loved saving his baby turtle from his "inflection" that was called "hipvirous" really the little turtle had a lung infection . The day was awesome till we got to the gift shop and Noah wanted a toy I had to explain to him the Irene the hurricane took all mommys money and it was meltdown time after that ... Oh well I had fun with my boys :)

Bringing blogging to my phone

So alot has happened the past few weeks with Irene coming through and then all the clean up that came after. This summer has been long and full of loss and tons of stress. I feel that I always say this but hopefully next year will b our year . Me and Cory started massage school this week so along with working full Time going to college full time and raising two kids I am now working on becoming a massage therapist . I downloaded this program on my phone so I can update my blog instead of being on facebook so much it's really annoying how much people use Facebook to meddle in your business ... Ive used facebook as my blog for years posting pictures and writing little pieces of my life down but really I don't need people to who are negative to respond to my life and judge me and my Friends for how we live our life ... I mean really 2 schools 2 kids and full time work ... If I wanna relax with friends every once and a while who is anyone to criticize me or the friends I'm with ... Ugh anyways that's why I have this ... Anywho here's some Picts from Irene